Voices In My Head

I realized today that I have stopped 

living life,

I am literally trying to get to the next day,

just living in the thought of tomorrow.

I am not living, I am waiting.

And trouble is I don't even know what I am exactly waiting for.

I am Kind of afraid what it might be for.

I don't even know when I started,

Where I am Now,

But I still remember the words that keep playing around.

I am not in the stage of Sadness, Nor Weakness;

Which I tell to myself,

But What about the deep Journey of my life,

Which I don't want to share.

There was a HOPE, and Only Hope;

Which Could Make A Person, I wanted to Be.

Too many things in my head, 

But I recall few things everyday like,

"Looser Promise But I Commit"

"I warn you, We both can never be together"

What it is that makes these Quote so special,

I try every-time to forget but;

It's 7 years 0 months 12 days;

 

But here I am now, Everyday;

Thinking the same thing again and again. 

I am not weak, nor I will go and die. 

Death is easier, Life is even worse. 

I do things now, where I wish to make other smile,

Finding my lost smile somewhere in them. 

If that makes me live, it's fine to me. 

Hoping someday will come, when i can say;

I don't need to pray, 

Since, Only time I felt myself was the day: 

 I first Saw myself, Finding things where no one could get;

Living a life where Journey mattered to me more than Just A Day.

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