Beginners!

I realized today that I have stopped  living life, I am literally trying to get to the next day, just living in the thought of tomorrow. I am not living, I am waiting. And trouble is I don't even know what I am exactly waiting for. I am Kind of afraid what it might be for. I don't even know when I started, Where I am Now, But I still remember the words that keep playing around. I am not in the stage of Sadness, Nor Weakness; Which I tell to myself, But What about the deep Journey of my life, Which I don't want to share. There was a HOPE, and Only Hope; Which Could Make A Person, I wanted to Be. Too many things in my head,  But I recall few things everyday like, "Looser Promise But I Commit" "I warn you, We both can never be together" What it is that makes these Quote so special, I try every-time to forget but; It's  7 years 0 months 12 days;   But here I am now, Everyday; Thinking the same thing again...