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For ***** sake, Why the hell am I awake?🎃 The clock strikes past twelve in many leaps and bounds.👀 I lay here with out a sound, desperately throwing my self at sleep.👓 Reasonably speaking, I'm being tormented by the secrets I am keeping.👌 Weaken the divide between sanity and my reality.🤷‍♀️ Exams in short time, all I can do is work out line after line. Still I get those vibes, finding somewhere nearby, to say 'Hi🌟' Neither feeling nor life seems to be on track, As this pandemic has only made me feel to be on attack, Why is it so so hard to erase someone from such a long time? I know it is stupid, to be calling someone everyday even if you know  "Number is Blocked",📞  As it seems to be one of those habits, which will remain for life time. Thinking someday, everything will be right  and I can go back to sleep like before,✨ I have a dream, I wish I find myself lost somewhere in the darkness of Past and Future; Being able to get memory restored!🔑 It has been q...

You think you got away again: Done the wrong and not paid for the sin, But the guilt your mind denies. ||I can see it in your eyes|| It's no wonder you can't sleep, With what you dream, Paralyzed by your fear, Where you can't scream, ||And now nothing's as it seems|| So persistent in entitlement, Yet remorseless for the blood you've spent, Now you're preying on the innocents' fear, ||But their wounds don't disappear|| "Just 'cause you close your eyes' Doesn't mean you can hide." It's no wonder you can't sleep, With what you dream, Paralyzed by your fear, Where you can't scream, ||And now nothing's as it seems|| Try to stuff it down; it just comes back around, You try to stuff it down; it just comes back around. It's no wonder you can't sleep, With what you dream, Paralyzed by your fear, Where you can't scream, ||And now nothing's as it seems|| People will come and exploit, Get Benefited; Will Cry for ...

How do you feel? When you know you'd fit, But fate can't see it fit to let her find you. Then you go,  Now remembering her, with his book of her truth,  A chronicling of his past right next to you. When you have been together for like an year seemed like decade, Like the pictures on your phone!  Like the way your heart wants what life won't give! Like the belief to be together but destiny planned something else. "Fate is Cruel, Fate is the Worst. Fate doesn't see WHO YOU ARE ."                          Chances are dirt. Chances were never my thing, If I am the Blame, l et me suffer and sacrifice until the candles ends with no flame. I don't believe in second chances and I never did,  I'm not asking for another chance and I never will. Now A few feet away from her, She finds you, She looks at you, Surprising you, Shocking you, "She finds it amusing, your heart is so engulfed,  So quick and then IT W...

Your footprints used to muddy my floor, Now that you're gone, I'll see them no more. They trail up the stairs to heaven's gate, Leaving me behind and filled with heartache. You were my first love, and will always be. You were more than a pet, My dear old friend, Yet I knew that your life would eventually end. The day that I've dreaded has come and gone, I feel so alone, and the days seem so long. Sometimes I think I can feel you near, And if I listen closely, just maybe I'll hear. The sound of you barking, play growling and such. The truth is I just miss you so very much. Why is it one after another; everything goes missing, only when we start understanding their importances, What will it take to stop somewhere thinking, the reason why i am making distances? How long will it take for my broken heart to mend? When will I be ready for such a friend? The answers to these questions I truly don't know, I just know I'm not ready yet to let you go.             ...

Meeting you was something unexpected as it seemed, 👫 But Deep Inside It wished, Had it been long ago? It was out of the blue, but it wasn't Ordinary. TODAY IS 7th July- "First Day I Met" 'Has this happened to you?'  You meet someone unexpectedly,  and having no clue how much they’d mean to you in the future.  How the path of two strangers crossed,  And how it has changed and affected your life so much.  And how an accidental clash of worlds,  was the most beautiful thing that could possibly ever happened to you?  Well, It didn't happen to me, But I can feel it. Like a meet of "SRK" and "PRETTY" from VeerZaara; If You haven't watched the movie, I feel Sorry for you! You have missed one of best love story. I wish I could bring back everything as the way it was supposed to be, Just you and me. The meeting was awkward, But I had a smile, 🌝 as stupidly as we met first. Recalling the days in the flashback, Those crying, fighting  sessions o...

Did you find a word? " Yes, it's a Village" Infact My Village, My Childhood ; The merry children are playing i n the little village street; The old men sit by the doorway t heir evening rest is sweet. And careful mothers are busy,  they hurry out and in; Or pause by the door for a moment  to smile at their children's din. And farther away in the distance,  from the playground comes a shout, as quick-eyed youths at their pastimes  run, strong of limb, about. The village wakes up thirsty and hungry a s tribal songs blast from a radio house, Rising sun and blue skies peek humbly a s a drifting breeze descends to dowse. And of the creatures mad wild and tame m ating calls echo from the nearby pond, As white birds fly out far, playing a game t he world is a playground for the young. And the forcados river comes rolling fast  I reflect on the sweet memories of the past, Hand in hand with the wonders of the ages d ucks float on the river, in twos and threes: I die in t...