"mE"

The moment I realized I didn't like mE was,
when I allowed pain to become my best friend.
when I let my childhood be in others control than mine, 
sitting alone far from my family,
thinking of being the reason of all family issues. 

See 'Pain was always there' right by my side never letting me down.
When she just left me alone with no explanation, 
'Pain was there'.
When my best friend started acting stranger to me and broke my trust, 
'Pain was there'.
When my neighbour used to have hard feelings on me, 
'Pain was there'.

So it was only natural for me to cling to pain,
holding my hand through it all.
Pain was the only stable thing in my life never changing up on me,
never hitting me with a unwanted surprises. 
No matter the problem I can always count on pain to help the tears fall smooth and freely.

Pain knows my heart like no one else inside and out,
clinging to it the moment it feels peace trying to tear us apart.
Pain will never leave me alone to deal with life,
Pain has been around so long we look identical,
Pain has moved in uninvited of course but I can't put pain out,
due to the fear of being alone.

Pain has spoiled me with devotion and dedication.
Pain is my Lover:
Pain is my Friend:
Pain is my Teacher:
Pain is mE.

_yaitsmebibek